blah! in a form of paralysis!
i think i know what i want ...i think i can handle it ... but then i find myself like this!
finding it hard to put into words.. anything really.
fear of judgement (not that you will but you know you will...everyone does) fear of putting myself out there. and it being in the open. fear of not being perfect. yea yea i am that narcissistic. im not used to this you see.
sigh.
khair anyway. it'll get worked around. no worries. everything does.
you grow up and you learn to take things in your stride. its all part of the big shabang.
dont you get it. there are things just not worth it. not worth the time. the grief.
everyone has it shitty. and everyone knows it. but you dont get clean by wallowing in the daymn shit! deal w/ it!
do it.
build a bubble w/ a smile inside. and keep it. in fact you have it already. just deeper inside then others. it helps you know. helps you get to where the bubble becomes real and even when sometimes you leave it behind it follows you. and you know at the end of the day. at the end of this life. you will be fine.
you have to be.
you have to make it work for yourself
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bubbles are notoriously thin skinned animals.
..and only people who are beautiful like a fairy can carry smiles in bubbles : )
true.
Its so true that i don;t even know how to praise it.
So true.
Beautiful post.
"you have to make it work for yourself"
no matter who is there for you, no matter who you count on to help you get through with anything, in the end its you who has to make it work for yourself..
i absolutely loved this post.
We all are the same when it comes to being conscious of others judgement. Don't bother about how others judge you since they are busy worrying about the same.
Great post.
Sonia
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