whats in a list

exhausted!! ...seems to be the norm lately ....
night of craziness when leaving... craziness again coming back.... strange sort of symmetry life has... things go round in circles. round and round. round again. i dont know if they come back to square one nessesarily or just spiral in some wayward direction or the other....
cant think much right now ... everything seems to be going in slow motion ... what else can i do but play this perpetual fucking dodge the ball and smile the whole way through ...because honestly what else is there to do.

smile
la camisa negra is playing on the tv in the background ... that makes me smile...

i was thinking about it today (while looking at the clouds ofcourse).... getting through things through everything that life flings at you. and i thought about "things that make me happy"... that make me smile. thats all its about afterall. its how i'll ever get through this. this everything and the everything that will follow...
and i was thinking wouldnt it be great if we could list the things.. round them up nicely making sure not to spill them all over the place ofcourse and keep them in a box ... all to our selves... at our disposal ...to open up the box at any time at all and smile ....as needed.
that would be nice.

:) made me think of the raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens song ... hehheh .... i wonder if people already have such lists and boxes and if they manage to pull from them what they need ...as needed...