muffled inside

i need to cry. i need to just let it all out. cry till theres nothing left inside. cry without feeling like i have nothing to be crying about. and I want him to be there. to hug me while im crying. hug after im all cried out. i dont want him to question why it is im crying or reflect on what my crying has to do with him. i want to cry and i want him to understand and be there. i want him to change things around and fix everything that makes me cry. i want him to make it better. i want to be able to look at him and not want to cry.