i woke up today. rushed. missed my morning run. fuck. felt like i had been interrupted. stumped. right in the middle of something. could have been important. now ill never know.
the lady next to me just offered me chocolate. (she brings extra lunch everyday for me. sweet.) i think theyv gone bad though... doesnt taste like kisses (but then nothing does anymore but thats another story) ...o0h gone really really bad. .. crap.
tired still. coffeeless. im such a grogged up bitch. antisocial. disassociated. its just too early in the morning for the colosal effort of being nicer then i haveto haveto. its the weekend and im tired at the thought that it starts all over again in only a day. sigh. its the thought of the processes that i have to go through that holds me back. it takes so long. everything.
cheeks chubby cheeks. fun to pinch. with bigger chubs then the pregs around. groan groan groggity groan. what a drag i am what a bore. with no time to breathe. the lists i made. left. the movies bought untouched. the two books trying to be read at once. ignored. alone. left to a side on my table beside the lamp. untouched. one on page 26 the other 203 maybe. missing. (maybe ill buy some more fun ones) missing in action. missing the bumming. missing missing missing the you! how the fuck is this going to happen? this for so long! fuck ufkc fuck. i know i know its me. i know. what can i do. i have to. urgh. fuckfrustrationfuck/ i miss you daymnit. this sucks. choke*croak*. i have nothing more. not to say. not much to do. talked to you. happier now. just a little. hmmmm you so.


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Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness.
Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women.
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.
Chiraptophobia- Fear of being touched.
Chorophobia- Fear of dancing.
Chromophobia or Chromatophobia- Fear of colors.
Chronophobia- Fear of time