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im in a time at a place where im not so sure of anything anymore. Very recently having become aware of the fact that "im all grown up" (well almost) i dont think im liking the hand iv been dealt. Honestly maybe its the "shit im no longer a teenager" realization talking but shit i really dont want to be here...i dont want the confusion ...the what to do with my life .... the will this relationship last my entire life... the now is the time time to live up to all those expectations ....the how the fuck am i supposed to handle all this !! And yea i know ... this is just the beginning