what do you do when you feel like all the odds are against you? what do you do when you want something but after all this you wonder if it was ever meant to be. is there such a thing as meant to be or inversly so not? what if God is sending us flashing neons signs saying "its never going to happen" and we're just not getting it. do you thnk if we carry on this way ....do you think we get points for holding on or are we just fucking kidding ourselves. why cant we get past ourselves? why is it so fucking difficult. just to understand. understand me understand you.im so fucking lost. right here im broken. im cynical. im faithless. i love you but im scared fucking shitless. how can this be happening. how does it always get so fucking twisted? you pick up the phone have it all figured out. you'll say what you have to the other person will understand accept and you'll be fine. but its never fine. nothing is fine.....
i just ...
i dont know ...anything
anymore...




im sorry